Your life can be full and still feel strangely predictable. Maybe boredom isn’t asking you to add more to your calendar. Maybe it’s asking whether you’ve gotten so practiced at responsibility that you’ve forgotten how to surprise yourself.

What happens when life gives you a blank space—and you immediately start filling it with what you think should come next? Before you chase the relationship, the new goal or the next version of yourself, it may be worth asking one question: Do I actually want this?

Have you ever wondered, "Why am I not happy when my life looks so good?" This personal story explores how we slowly lose ourselves one decision at a time—and how we find our way back by including ourselves in our own lives again.

If you are rushing through your days with a chest full of sighs and a quiet question in the back of your mind — when did I last actually feel like myself?